Time Kills Everything.

Over the pass one hour or so, I've been browsing through really really old conversations that I had with people over the past few years. And I've realised that, I'm still that childish immature brat that doesn't know when its time to be serious. Today, I met a friend whom I havent seen ever since he left the school. That was around 4 years ago. He changed, he wasnt that boy who used to toy around with our gang in school. Something he did, make me realised something. He laid a heart truth on me, saying that I can no longer be that lil kid anymore. I'm a senior now for God's sake. Pranks and Jokes are the things of the past. That I can no longer continue in the future.

Its frightening how fast time flies. And I've wasted my childhood by doing nothing. Each second used regretting the past, is a second wasted in the future. Over the past several years, friends of mine have disappeared, moved and died. Its like only when they're gone that you realised how important they are in your life. And to be honest, I'm terrified.

Only less than 2 years to go before finishing high school. Is that the time where everything ends?? We'll each go separate roads. Will we see each other in the future?? Or will they disappear from my life forever?? I don't want to make new friends. Cause the ones I have now, are the ones that i still want to have in the future.

Alicia, Arif, Jia Hui, Lu See, Joel, Maria, Aime, Nikita, Joey, Cynthia, Nizam, Rahat, Senussi, Khairi, Mizan, Mary Jane, Nicholas, Jasmine, Bazilah, Jazzreen, Aqilah, Suok Jiuan, Jie, Bel, and Tiff.

Guys, I may have been mean. I may have criticize. But at the end of the day, I sleep soundly at night knowing that you guys are in my life. And so i say, I'm sorry. I'll try to be nicer? next time?
We've cried together, We've laughed together, We've Suffered Together and We've been Together. Hate you or Love you, you guys are still my friends and there's nothing i can do about it. I have made many mistakes in life and done things that i wish i could take back, but I'll make it up to you guys.

All this time, I've never been that afraid of death because I know that eventually, someday, I'll die. What I'm afraid of is losing you guys. If something were to happened, I don't know what I'll do.

To this I say, I love you people. You guys have the key to my happiness. I Thank You.


Your Friend,
Andy.